spontaneous thoughts....

  Friday, August 8, 2008 at 1:56am

i write you. worlds apart yet so near. blood shed life giving source to strangers among death faced with choices leading to the grave..mistakes caress feel good ways. running through my mind. stumbling over thoughts to high. lies wrapped around truth dissolves all hope. blood shed life giving source to strangers. you died i live i die you live in me life...strange inuendo leading to new change gaining ground falling down staring at you. time caves in....drop to my knees on my face again

wait.

erase this mistake. stumbling over flesh that cries out...spirit speaks death leads to life.flesh screams satisfy the moment.

waves of sweet fragrance pouring from your brow.grace.

who can win in battles of change desire flames inquire welling inside your deepest fears leer questions crumble tearing at lifeless humble people wishing death was near. hiding behind a facade of tricks and treats built to last for...moments...satisfy this craving child, society speaks...give in to your selfish pride, we listen. words given...distraction pleads let loose be free. feel it burn as you swallow morals fallen into old fashion times of struggle chasing hopes the american dream confusing teens..living streams of lies to continue ugly facets of life that lead to crushed souls brokeness only made whole by...you...so near yet so far..hear the cries of these thoughts...hear the heart wrenching plight of each fallen heart. close my eyes imagine your eyes upon the endless searching mind interpreting filing away memories of lost time....attempting to achieve a name. wise children fall into step the worlds rhythm playing out beats of defeat mirrored by success...

wait.

cringe you see all...tears fall.truth be told in a world of lies compromise clinging close breathing threats down throats of hungry lives. trying to fight a losing battle where is the separation? of reality and insanity. is it you? can we live truth? you are truth. walking down the corridors of walls to high to reach paled by the silence of release as blood washes over me..reminders of your story. how you came walked hells gates overcame death. man. pain. the grave. hate. struggle. rejection stemming from fear that challenged you. perfection. i cry you cried i hate you love i fail you remain perfect. life giving source to me. i melt in you. try as i did run as i did give up i did. life giving source to me. come in savoring you.clinging to thoughts of you. amidst a world that hates you. reality speaks loneliness wreaks havoc on unsuspecting travelers gaining ground on hatred to your name. lonliness exists where you are not.

wait.
running freely waiting staring understanding all that was and is to come. held together by your song. you are....I AM.